Why are you not writing these days? Someone asked me. "Well, i am not getting that space to think" I replied. 

Little did she know that I mere have some emotion left inside me. Ever since her episode i couldn't hold a pen neither any story touches me.

I get reflected of that phase time and again.

I questioned myself. Do you love someone? Do you want to be loved by anyone? Do you even have expectations from anyone? I felt a deep cold silence in my heart. From some times, i have been developing myself to be so strong that I think i stopped feeling for people. It's hard to think but i have expectation from no one. I like being in my own space and enjoy my own company. But sometimes, this is scary. This feeling of not being loved and not being able to love haunts in nights like this. I think I want to change the way this is, i want to feel things. I think i want to love, to be loved, to be cared. If not, i want to be hurt, i want to be broken, i want to experience things like before, i want to see if i still have emotion left inside me. 

In dark nights, watching the sky full of stars i want someone to break my heart so badly, i want pain, a lot of emotional pain. Don't wonder why, because i just want to feel thing, anything.